Outing

Today I went to town with Ying Xia and asked Daryl to come along. We went to NYDC for lunch and well we didn't exactly have lunch since those two boo boos already ate! So much for making me starve myself in the morning. And of course, me being the shy little twat that I am, felt embarrassed to have a whole meal in front of them. So I settled for what Daryl was having, Potato salad with bacon and lettuce. I added in cheese and spicy stuff too. Then we had the desert. I forgot the name but it was two scoops of vanilla ice cream with chocolate syrup all over and some brownies and whipped cream. It cost $9.50!!! But the three of us shared so it was okay. I wanted to take a picture of it but I didn't bring my camera. Damn. No opportunity to cam-whore today. Bleagh.

Went to Heeren after that and we were messing around at the Rip Curl store. We were commenting and critiscising their tank tops and took silly pictures in their hats. Yixie, remember to send me the picture ok? It was fun and Daryl got absolutely bored. Then he had another thing coming. Lol! YingXia wanted to be lingere and we didn't tell Daryl about it till we met up. LMAO! He looked horrifyed. Well in the end we ended up going from Heeren to Cathay Cineleisure to Taka. Lol. It was a fun outing.

Received news from Christine that there's this thing going on at Zouk next tuesday. Definitely going with YX and D. But missing Ning a lot cuz it would've been a whole lot more fun if she was around. >< However it's on the day of my Dad's Birthday so there might be some clash. But hopefully I can manage it.

Blohhhhh

I went back to school today for History. Grrrr. I hate the Arab Israeli Conflict and Islamic Fundamentalism that we're studying. There's so much information that my brain circuits have fused. I have no idea how to study for it for next year's block test. But my history teacher is an insightful man and I think I have learned a lot about the on-going conflict that's going on in the Middle East and well my understanding of the situation has definitely improved.

Later went to lunch with Adeline. It was cool to hang out with her since like we haven't done so before. I mean I have known her for almost a year and this was the first time we were hanging out. We bitched about our secondary schools and how awfully strict they are. Haha! It was seriously fun to talk to her and then later on the ride home on 39 we both fell asleep. Heh!

Just now was playing bejewelled with Daryl. He owned the game. First try 32000+. The only one on our buddy list who has the highest score is Jean 38000+ but she took 6 tries. And I am the third with a pathetic 17000+. Blaaaaaaaaah!

Can't wait to go to India. I dunno why but I feel seriously homesick. Blaaaaaaaaaah! Ok bye! :) Tmr there's guitar practice. Too intensive but it's for SYF. Hopefully we can win Gold.

Promo fiasco

Well promo results are out and I feel relieved that I got promoted. But that's just about it. I am not at all satisfied with what I got. BBBCE. Not very encouraging. I feel I should have gotten at least an A for History, GP and Economics. But they got downgraded to B. But I am happy with Lit, I honestly did not expect a C after that fiasco. However, Maths is worrying me. I am supposed to be good in maths, then why am I doing so badly? I feel very depressed. And at this point, parents don't help either. All they did was critiscize my maths grade and completely ignore my other grades. Sigh.

In a way I guess they are motivating me but sometimes it feels nice to hear them say, "Well done!" But this time I guess I have only mself to blame. I should have studied harder and longer. I should've sacrificed CS, Warcraft and Maple and studied! I truly regret it. I am taking this as a wake-up call, like my dad said. Next year is crucial. Next year is the last chance I have to launch a successful career for myself. It is one opportunity that I cannot afford to screw up at all costs. Which is why I have come up with 3 resolutions in the wake of the Promo disaster.

1) Study for longer hours everyday
2) Pay close attention in Lecture and Tutorials (no more fooling around!)
3) Sort out my priorities and ditch gaming and TV addictions.

Seriously, this is my final shot. And I am not going to screw it. I will work hard to make BBBCE to AAAAA. Definitely! I have faith in myself.

As for my 121 classmates, I have faith in all of you. No matter how you guys performed, remember this is not the end of the world. You may have lost the battle (like me) this time, but remember the A-levels is the War and that is something we will all win. Let's all work hard towards the As.

And for those who didn't make it or got provisionaly advanced, all I can say is work harder! Put in your best efforts because we all know you guys can do it! All you need is a bit of hard work. I have faith in you guys. I love you all loads! Rock on 121! You guys have been amazing.

A little observation

I just realized trusting people can be a lot harder than I orginially imagined. Okay, maybe not this whole trust thing but more like depending on someone kind of thing. The point is, at the end of the day, if I take the plunge, will he take the plunge with me?

Luis gave me some great advice today. In the true words of D-generation X, "SUCK IT!" Lol! Thanks. Seriously I couldn't care less about who likes me or who doesn't. If you think I am not likeable and you want to advice your friends into doing the same go ahead. I seriously don't need people in my life who can't make a decision for themselves and needs your influence to do so. See if I care...

Friendship

You know what I just realized? I had a very bad misconception for the longest time. I used to think that if you had many friends, you'd be truly happy. Which is why I was all out making friends in secondary school. And guess what? I got stabbed in the back, humiliated, rejected and all the possible nightmares you can think of. It explains why I was so reserved during the first 3 months at YJ, alienating myself most of the time, allowing myself to keep only a few friends.

Yeah sure I mean everyone says hi and hello but that's the expected decorum of society. Other than that, I am not sure if I feel anything for them. I mean yeah if they ever need help, I'll gladly help them. If they need a shoulder to cry on, I'll happily lend it to them. But somehow I'll never be attached to them in the certain way I am attached to my closest friends in YJ. Yixie. Ning. Kings. Tiwari (yeah I know, go ahead and gasp). Daryl (To some extent, when he doesn't tease me about who's going to be our new CT. :P). I don't know what I'll do without these guys. They are my life at school and I know I can tell them my deepest darkest miseries and they'll still smile and tell me to move on. I love you guys a lot!

I have now understood that it's quality not quantity that matters. You can have 100 friends but can you be certain all 100 of them are going to stand by you, no matter what? Through thick and thin? Yeah some will but what about the rest? But if you only focused and devoted all your love and friendship to those few you know will stick by you, won't it make it much nicer? Isn't the concept of being cosy well practiced and accepted? Hmmm? Well if you're reading this and you happen to be one whose name's not mentioned, don't take offence. I love you and I'll always be your friend. But they're just more special to me. Sorry. :)

Stupid PW

I hate PW! It's a fucked up subject which doesn't deserve priority. But oh well...gotta pass it either way. Grrrrrrr! I just hope OP is over! Can't wait for PW to end. Then I'll truly celebrate.

Heart of Darkness Rocks!

I know it's quite cliched to say this but hey, I had a really good day in school today, considering I have been suffering from massive depression the past few months and also focusing too much on my insecurites. But strangely things went so well today, thanks to two of my friends, Kings and Yixie. Ironically it happened when we were going home. Since it wasn't 1.30 pm yet, we weren't allowed to leave the school compound, so we lingered on near the Guard House. We got so bored that we started playing a really lame game called "Take 3 steps forward and then 2 steps backward". Then Mr. Tay went by and asked us what we were doing. When we explained our "game" to him, he improvised and adviced us to walk all the way to the courtyard and take one step at a time. According to his calculations, he said, "By the time we reach the Guard House, it'll already be 1.30", with that he just went off. Lol! Funny guy!

Another reason for my happiness is this!

YES! Finally got it. This is our last Lit text for the A-levels and I have been looking forward to this! Yeah sure it cost me $15 but it was money well spent. Not like as if I had an option of not buying but still, Christine and I are the only ones from our class who have purchased the book so far. Wheeeeeeeee!

Tomorrow I have to go back to school to do a stupid survey which our class didn't do today. We rock. We always do things as a class, that includes skipping tutorial, which our dear P21 did once. That also Econs because Ms Koh wasn't around. Oh boy, I don't think I'll ever forget the scolding we got from Mr. Syn because he was waiting for us at our venue and no one showed up! LOL! :D

Anyway, just because I feel like it, let me show you all of my Lit texts ok?

Ok, gotta go. Going to continue reading Heart of Darkness.

Boedi Oetomo

Kingsley finds this funny! Booo!

According to him, "I find it funny because you (me) were talking to your brother...ah you know the rest *funny smirk*" Go Figure.

Going for Spencer's Lit in a while.......bah!

Incase you can't figure it out, I am at school.