Emo Post about friends

You know I thought by the time people reach Junior Colleges, they'll be mature enough to leave their superficial artificial selves behind and approach life in a mature and open-minded way. But I realize that was just me thinking of bullshit. People are still the same egoistic, self centered and backstabbing teens that they were in Secondary school. And yes, sad to say some of my classmates are exact representation of these people. They are always looking for someone to hate, someone to bully to vet their own insecure appetites. Whether it's me or someone else, I do not particularly care but they are always on to it. It's like as if they cannot accept anyone who treads a different path than what is considered a norm.

Come to think of it, it'll be selfish to describe all of my classmates in this manner. No there are some really genuinely nice people who are not judgemental, vindictive and not looking for a poor soul to bully. Like Christine. Last year I used to avoid her under the pretense that she'll probably be judgemental of me and that if I ended up on her bad side, she'll not like me and stuff. But this year as I got to know her better, I realized she is a really nice person to talk to and not at all the type of person I envisioned her to be last year.

Then there's people like Ryan, Salem. Always nice to talk to them whenever I am in need for a good laugh.

Finally there are 2 people in my class whom I feel I can trust my life with. And ironically they are the first 2 friends I made in YJ. Ying Xia and Daryl. They've really stuck by me even when I was being reserved and ignorant and they never fail to share a joke with me or they never get tired of me bitching about YJC and other things in life. I always have such a great time with Ying Xia bullshitting about all the absurdities and abnormalities in life and I have fun stoning with Daryl during lectures.

You know after we graduate from YJ, I think I'll probably end up keeping in touch with these 2 people because they're genuine friends. They're not fake, I know they'll never backstab me and I'm pretty sure in times of dire needs they'll stick by me. I guess life would have been very different if I wasn't in YJ or if I wasn't in 121/221.

Well despite my outright agnostic attitude, I thank God everyday for giving me a blessed family, a pair of jokers (Luis and Ian), my friends (like Sharon, Rat, Arnie, Jen...) and also amazing school friends like YX and Daryl.

I love them all!

And in the true word's of Nick Carraway, I feel that "reserving judgement is a matter of infinite hope."

Books and Weather - What a non sequiter!

I am not going to bitch about school except for the horrible weather. When my British friends complain about the terrible London weather, I wish they'd be instantly teleported to Singapore and experience the heat wave that is constantly inflicting it's presence on us. The temparature is hot, humid and it has that sticky feeling to it. Urgh. School is becoming a drag because of this. I only enjoy lessons in the LTs or in the air-conditioned classrooms. At least it prevents me from dozing off from the immense heat. The library is another safe heaven to escape from the heat. Lol. But I do miss the study area. That used to be my safe heaven in JC1 when I was living the life of a hermit, towards the begining of the year.

Besides the crappy weather, I was so bored during my free period (yeah someone please shout and remind me A levels are in 5 months' time) that I came up with a reading list. Something to get a indepth insight to the subjects I am studying.

For Whom The Bell Tolls - Ernest Hemingway - nearly finished
Farewell to Arms - Hemingway - finished
Age of Innocence - Edith Wharton - reading
1984- George Orwell
The World is Flat - Thomas Friedman
Jude, The Obscure - Thomas Hardy
Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen - finished
Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen - finished
God of Small Things - Arundhuti Roy - finished

I'll update the list as and when I come across a new book. :)

Miserable day

I hate being sick. The worst part is that the flu bug or virus or whatever it is refuses to go away. It refuses to leave me alone! I have been coughing my lungs out for the past 2 weeks. I finished my antibiotics course, all the other medicines the doctor gave and even emptied a packet of panadol in the span of 14 days and when I went to college today I still felt like crap. I felt like as if I'll drop dead any second. The only good thing in an otherwise sucky day was Mr. Spencer. He never fails to make me laugh. Apparently he noticed my "condition" and promised to be nice to me for the day. LOL! Funny guy. If there's one thing I'll miss about YJ it's definitely him. Because he's a true educationalist (as Ms Aminah said) and a commedian. My Dad is also very impressed with him, since he met him last year during PTD. He says all Lit teachers should be a little eccentric like Mr. Spencer. Heh.

Then there was GP. Thank goodness we went to Comp Lab to do our Student's General Certificate. It's the school's way of being extremely lame. Well I wrote down my 3 most significant competitions to the school. Guitar. CVD. Competitions. Blah. I wished for a moment that instead of Guitar I was able to write Debate. All those debate trainings, late night grindings flashed in my mind but I decided to keep them in the past. Debate and YJ. Well they never happened. I'll deny it. I'll probably take up debate in university again.

Then had Econs lecture. It was...not interesting for some reason. Yeah I remember because the LT was fucking cold (I was sitting right under the air-con) and Mr. Syn spoke too loudly into the microphone and my ears hurt. Thankfully one brave soul mentioned this to him and he got relatively softer. Oh but his mispronunciations were funny. Poor guys.

History was urgh. By then I was a walking zombie. SBQ sucks. I swear I hate that. I'd rather write 400000000000 essays than 1 SBQ. It's just so analytical and yeah essays require in depth analysis but SBQ is just so SUCKY. Man that pretty much sums up my miserable day. Oh and it was raining. One of those annoying days when all you want to do is cuddle under your blanket and sleep rather than to travel from Pasir Ris to Yishun. Grrrr.

Sometimes I really wish I had chosen Meridian instead of deciding to stay on at YJ. Damn. But I guess I wouldn't have met my wonderful classmates and Mr. Spencer otherwise. Heh. I love my class. Well most of them. The ones I speak to regularly. They're really nice people. Had an awesome time bitching about YJ with Christine during our common break. Last year I didn't speak to her much but this year I found out she's a really cool person to talk to. :D

And guess what? I know a secret! Courtesy of Ningsih Utomo.

Oh and I almost forgot. I watched Spidey yesterday. It was ok except for the ending. Can't give away the spoiler but seriously a certain someone shouldn't have died. What happened to Happily Everafter? Hmph! Ciao.

Homework beckons. Maths. Yay. *sarcasm*