You know I thought by the time people reach Junior Colleges, they'll be mature enough to leave their superficial artificial selves behind and approach life in a mature and open-minded way. But I realize that was just me thinking of bullshit. People are still the same egoistic, self centered and backstabbing teens that they were in Secondary school. And yes, sad to say some of my classmates are exact representation of these people. They are always looking for someone to hate, someone to bully to vet their own insecure appetites. Whether it's me or someone else, I do not particularly care but they are always on to it. It's like as if they cannot accept anyone who treads a different path than what is considered a norm.
Come to think of it, it'll be selfish to describe all of my classmates in this manner. No there are some really genuinely nice people who are not judgemental, vindictive and not looking for a poor soul to bully. Like Christine. Last year I used to avoid her under the pretense that she'll probably be judgemental of me and that if I ended up on her bad side, she'll not like me and stuff. But this year as I got to know her better, I realized she is a really nice person to talk to and not at all the type of person I envisioned her to be last year.
Then there's people like Ryan, Salem. Always nice to talk to them whenever I am in need for a good laugh.
Finally there are 2 people in my class whom I feel I can trust my life with. And ironically they are the first 2 friends I made in YJ. Ying Xia and Daryl. They've really stuck by me even when I was being reserved and ignorant and they never fail to share a joke with me or they never get tired of me bitching about YJC and other things in life. I always have such a great time with Ying Xia bullshitting about all the absurdities and abnormalities in life and I have fun stoning with Daryl during lectures.
You know after we graduate from YJ, I think I'll probably end up keeping in touch with these 2 people because they're genuine friends. They're not fake, I know they'll never backstab me and I'm pretty sure in times of dire needs they'll stick by me. I guess life would have been very different if I wasn't in YJ or if I wasn't in 121/221.
Well despite my outright agnostic attitude, I thank God everyday for giving me a blessed family, a pair of jokers (Luis and Ian), my friends (like Sharon, Rat, Arnie, Jen...) and also amazing school friends like YX and Daryl.
I love them all!
And in the true word's of Nick Carraway, I feel that "reserving judgement is a matter of infinite hope."