Reflection...

I actually managed to get a lot of studying done despite oversleeping, hence, missing school. I revised my History and Math quite intensely but I still think there's that enthusiasm missing in me. I used to have so much of it when I was in Sec 2. I used to find sheer joy in studying and nowadays I just cannot concentrate. I mean sitting down and studying for a solid half an hour has become a challenge for me whereas when I was younger I used to study for 2-3 hours solid without any breaks at all. That explains the dip in my grades. I used to be a straight A student and now I'm barely getting any As.

And everday I hear how NUS, NTU and SMU are becoming more stringent over their admission criteria and only admitting the best of the best. Even some straight A cases are not getting into the course of their choice. Then I see my progress report and I get so depressed. These shouldn't be the grades for me. I am capable of better grades. I know I have enough calibre and intelligence in me to get all As. But for the last 3 years I have been feeling so dazed, out of focus. I guess that attributes to my not-so-impressive O level results. I don't think I can afford to have a repitation of that fiasco. This is my last chance to redeem myself, to decide on a good career and work hard for it. If I screw up my A levels, I am finished for life. I have one shot, one opportunity and I just can't blow it.

It feels good now, getting that bit above off my chest. I spoke to my cousin about this problem and she gave me a good piece of advice. She told me I can overcome this concentration deficiency by forcing my will over my mind. I must tell my mind not to wonder off but focus on studying. I must assert self control over myself and will myself to study. She also told me to somehow find that similar joy I used to feel while studying 4 years back. I must love the new things I learn. Gaah. Ok, enough of I will do this or that. I've decided from tomorrow onwards, I'll take control of my life. I'll force myself to sit down and study for solid 2-5 hours.

Prelims are in 6 weeks time, A levels in 4 months. I am not going to go down without a fight. Time to wake up, work hard and kick ass! Hell yeah! :D

What would you do?

I wonder where it will all end. These uncertainties that linger over my head, the screaming pessimism in my head. The thumping of my heart against my ribs as fear rushes through my vein, my vision blurs and I hear the drums beating my ears. I know I am preparing myself for war. I was taught to be fearless yet my torso shakes with fear. The agony of waiting, watching, waiting and anticipating, knowing well that the worst is yet to come. What would you do?

Coupling

I want Coupling Series 1-4 on DVD! I'm simply hooked to the show. I just love Jeff's semi-Scottish, semi-Irish accent. Yes in case you are wondering, they are different accents. And I love Patrick's cool headedness and Steve's whinning. Jack Davenport is of course teh darling. <3 But seriously I want Coupling on DVD! *sobs*

Not cool!

JACK DAVENPORT! You do not look hot in that long messy hair style. I understand the pirate in you is wanting to immitate Jack Sparrow for whatever reason God knows, you are far better off with that cute nerdy neat hairstyle you had when you were shooting Coupling. Please get you damn hair cut you bloody Brit.

Pirates ranting. Arrr!

I watched At World's End once more. I don't know why but I guess I was desperate to shake this feeling off me that told me AWE sucked. The first time I saw it, I was horrified by the character development. I hated the way how Jack Sparrow became a secondary character, Davy became a secondary antagonist and how the producers killed off Norrington when they built up such a powerful character at the end of DMC. Yes, I honestly thought Norrington would get more screen time and would have somewhat of an instrumental role in the end, i.e. switching sides, betraying Beckett. Besides that, there were many unwanted scenes that the movie could've done without. Like voting Elizabeth the Pirate King. First of all, it should've been a Pirate Queen but more importantly it was uncalled for. She was given too much of an importance in this movie as compared to the first two. That is perfectly normal for someone watching Pirates for the first time but to those of us deligently following the storyline it was uncalled for. I felt the plot was a mess, all over the place.

And Will, the new captain of the Dutchman? Well better than Jack becoming the captain which, would've been all too predictable. Still I felt disappointed by the lack of importance Davy Jones received in this movie. And Norrington as well (partly because Jack Davenport's drop dead hot and sexy but that aside...).

But I guess what saved the movie was probably the top notch acting by the cast. Yes there was great chemistry between Rush and Depp and the constant bickering of Barbossa and Sparrow, just adorable but sometimes over the top. The tension between Will and Elizabeth was well orchestrated and the old sparks between James and Liz was nice. I liked the kiss, because it was poignant and well gentle and...need I go on? And the thing that hit the jackpot was the awesome special effects! Especially towards the end, when they lined up for battle. The Black Pearl vs the Flying Dutchman. It was mindblowing, spectacular. This reminds me, the whole releasing of Calypso was just waste of screen time. I mean we did not need to see a 20 feet tall giant Tia Dalma dissipating into hundreds of crabs. No. I particularly enjoyed the battle between the Pearl and the Dutchman and that whirlpool.

Let's see. Oh yes, Tom Hollander! He has officially made me a fan. When I first saw him in DMC I thought he was a dickhead, similar to how much scorn I directed towards Norrington after CoTBP. The way he portrayed Beckett, it was just amazing. Especially at the end, when both the Pearl and the Dutchman fired at his ship, he just stood there, stunned, expressionless, only muttering, "It's just good business..." I felt I could seriously jump into the screen and kiss him. Hot and incredibly sexy.

Why are all Navy officers such stuck up arses in their first impression? Hmmm? Then drop dead sexy and gorgeous in the subsequent ones? Damn you Norrington! Damn you Beckett! And there goes my muse again. Never mind.

I'd still give AWE a 4 out of 5. I still stand by CoTBP. It's the best of the 3. I hope there'll be more of Pirates. Arrrr!

PS: I forgot to mention, Johnny looked hot as ever! :D